Thursday, April 22, 2010

A night....not so long...!!

[23-Apr-2010]
[Fri 03:37 hrs]

Thursday...1230 hrs...came out from the exam hall...dunno why all the engineers story start from the exam halls..or after that..maybe exams are the only thing they don't get adjusted to..its like a new experience for them every semester..!!
As I was saying..we came out from the exam hall...it was blisteringly hot outside..it was like we are being double fried on a stove..well we still had to leave the exam hall..the sooner the better..it is a place that gives me creeps..U know..i can go to most haunted place in the world..but not my exam hall..
Ahhhh...as I was saying..we..rather I..left the exam hall..went to my room to find my roommates already there..preparing weed..!
I thought one or two joints would be better..as my head was already spinning..lets spin it at top speed and see what happens..but as i lied down on my bed..i slept..n slept..n slept till 9 in the evening..well i guess i deserved it..for it was three straight nights since I had slept..i tell you..exams kill the engineer inside you..its a torture..should be banned by the human rights commission..
I thought somebody was calling me and that there was earthquake..u see..u think out of the world whenever someone breaks your beautiful nap..thinking u are dead..!!
So i woke and the first thing i heard.."chal Panagarh..khana kha ke aate hai.."..I was like..why the fuck do you need to go 20 km away for food.when it is abundantly available here..still the "taste" there is good..so I agreed..they asked me to arrange for a bike..i said it would be impossible as everybody with bike is out..so we had to resort to some 1000 year old 'Yamaha RX 100'..which was dry...!!
Reluctantly I got up from the bed..and went to petrol pump with empty bottle and filled it with more than a litre of fuel..thinking that would be enough for return trip..now what do u expect..its a bloody 100 cc bike..how much can i consume..we finally went..six of us..on two bikes..on Grand Trunk high way in the night..on bikes..with no horn..no headlights..not even a bloody tail light...
I was riding one bike and one old man..lovingly called "Daddy" by us..was on another bike..chanting the name of all the deities in the world..we reached the "dhaba" safely..had a good time there..drank beer and ate good food after ages.. everybody was feeling a bit high..so we stayed there for some more time till we both..me and "Daddy" are normal..we said we are so we rolled back to our college..and the journey starts there...
We had just left the place when that 1000 year old 'Yamaha RX 100' started making a well known sound..sound which every biker fears..bike was dry..wtf...!!
Imagine this..three people..on highway..all high..and a dry bike..that was it..everything we drank..every bit of 'highness' that we were having dried along with the dry tank of that "1000 year old bike"...
I knew a gas station ahead..so I started pulling the bike..while my co riders..bloody rascals..opened another bottle..finally after much pushing and pulling the bike reached the petrol pump..."24 hrs service" that was written over there...we went 'woke' up the '24 hrs service' personnel and asked him to fill it up..he plainly replied..we don't have petrol..gr8..a gas station with no gas in it..happens only in Durgapur..
We tried starting the bike again..pulled everything that was there in the bike hoping that last few drops of petrol will drive us to next station..n whoa..it started..we sat on it and drove it like it was our getaway bike and we are convicts on the run..but those few drops of petrol could give ride of only 5 min..after that bike did 'Dhuk dhuk dhug' and stopped..we had no choice than to pull it again..and the bloody heat..it was killing..so we removed our shirts and started pulling bike..the bright young minds of a premier engineering college..pulling a bike in the dead of the night..with shirts..on a highway..how does it sound...!!
Well..the next gas station had petrol..and he was more than happy to fill it..
Finally we had petrol..we had bike..but still we didn't had our shirts...!! never the less we drove it back to our college..and swore to beat the owner of that bike black and blue..

It was..and will be one of the most memorable nights of my life..it was something never happened to me before..true petrol did dry up before..but gas stations were nearby and had petrol...!
A night like this..with friends..who are high..and with any matches to lite a smoke..it sure is something that is to be kept in memory for a long long time...!!

Sunday, January 3, 2010

“My first experience..my college life”

Sat 03-01-2010
16:34 hrs


Hello again..I dunno what’s got into me..for I am writing a lot these days. If only, I would have written so much during my semesters, I wouldn’t have landed up into a supple..
Well forget it..it’s a different story, to be told later.

Coming to the first day..why does it always happen that we remember our first day of anything very clearly. Be it, the first day of school..first day out with friends..first day of college..first day of job..and many other first days..!!

Well again..my first day of my college life..the life where I just screwed around..!
I got into NIT Durgapur..Electrical Engineering branch..purely by luck..or to say it the way I see it now..maybe..by purely bad luck. I had appeared for my 12th from Nagpur, Maharashtra. So in according to the rule’s then, I had to go for my counseling in VNIT Nagpur. As I entered the NIT in Nagpur, I was astonished. It is such a beautiful college. It’s main gate itself was very imposing. It felt as if I am in different world when I entered. I could already feel knowledge flowing into me..[:D]..lozz..

So..it was a very good college..my counseling preferences and orders and choices were already decided by my dad..and I had very little sat in it. After all, he is the one who is going to pay my fees and expenses..!! So, when at the choice locking counter..as I say it..my dad asked me to put NIT Durgapur Electrical as the first choice and then the rest, and the person behind that counter did the same. It was 8th of July 2007..the beginning of my miseries.
As CCB does it..it puts it..the result on the website on the net before the actual time to check it whether it is correct or not (they want no mistakes..many lives depend upon on it..!). So they put results over the net in the night around 11p.m. My younger brother who is too stubborn kept on pressing reload tab and finally he got my result out. I had got into NIT Durgapur Electrical Engineering.
Everybody was happy..me too..
I was happy for the fact that college would be as good as Nagpur for it was NIT too..and it would open door of opportunities for me and what not all…!
We left for Durgapur..the next day..on 9th July. We reached Calcutta and stayed at some guest house of some company there..and we went to Durgapur next morning. We took a cab to NIT after reaching Durgapur station.
All my hopes of seeing good college were washed..by a flood..leaving no traces of any hope at all..!
It was a rickety..rusting..old gate..with old withered and patched road beyond it. The road side..covered with weeds and wild grass. The playground..it was almost covered with almost 3 foot high wild grass.
I knew..I was screwed for the next four year of my college life.
The academic building..it was as old as the oldest building in my living memory..of course not as old as the broken forts..! We got into that same building for admission procedure and the moment I stepped into it..I saw cob webs all over the place.
I told about my feeling to my dad..he replied..” Don’t worry beta..it’s a government university..it is supposed to be like this..!” And then he began..as always..a never ending lecture..over the state of the college in his days..!!

We were there before time for admission..almost by 2 hours..thanks to dad for all that hurry and anger over getting late..arrggghhhh….!
Then ay dad asked me to take a walk in the hostels area and around the campus. I was in no mood..firstly..my dreams of a good college were just now shattered and secondly it was too hot and humid outside. Still my dad was persistent and when I saw his glaring eyes looking towards me..all the heat outside was gone..! I went. We took a long walk to see old hostels with leaking drain pipes and withered and broken plaster and algae covered walls..ahh..it was enough..it couldn’t take it anymore..I checked the time..we were now late..for the admission. We rushed back to the admission hall..did the with the admission procedure. I was ready to go..but my dad wasn’t. he took me the library and then we went to the hostels were 1st years were supposed to stay.
Hall 9..it had a long tongue twisting name..which I can’t remember..! We entered this one..it was in better condition then the other hostels(I later learned it was constructed recently). I stood in the porch area..while my dad went to inspect the hall. I was waiting there and waiting for him to return..but soon I heard some voices..I figured out..one was resembled my dad’s..! Soon after I was certain..it was my dad’s..! I thought he got into another argument with someone. He has been getting into a lot of arguments lately. Sometimes with shop keeper, sometimes with police men, sometimes with some office clerk..for that matter anybody he can argue with..!
I went inside to check out. I could see him nowhere. I saw a room open..I went in. I saw my dad sitting with some guy who was covered in towel and a vest, sitting casually. My dad introduced me to him saying he is my senior. I didn’t like him..for the way he was sitting..the way he was talking to my dad. I wanted to say “Man you are sitting in front of my dad..you need to give him respect. Whatever he is..he is, after all my dad.”
Anyways I talked to him. He asked me my state of eligibility. I told him I am from Maharashtra. He told me you will be known as “Matthu” in this college. And that “Matthu” are the one who are ragged the most in this college. There was it..the final nail..in the coffin of my dreams..! Well..I heard all the crap he wanted me to listen to. And I listened..intently!

We, finally went to the station..discussing the college. We went back to Calcutta and then to home..me pondering over my recently broken dreams..and worried about the ragging and the life at college.

Guys..what I want to say is that..college is a stepping stone towards a more professional life. It has to make a good impression or else you will just not want to be a part of it. As always said..you need to be a part of something if you want to excel in it. Hope you guys..get the college of your dreams..;)

Take care..
Later..:)

Friday, January 1, 2010

Life..as I see it…

[Sat-02-01-2010]
[02:29 hrs]

I really dunno why m I writing this up, at this time of the night..maybe because you think about it all when you are alone. The time when the person is truly alone is when everybody else around them is busy with their own..ahh..forget the philosophy.

Well..it so happened this night that everybody else around me is sleeping and I am the only night owl who is still up..watching a movie..so basically this all came to me when I was watching this movie.

Guys..I am not a preacher or a philosopher or something..m just plain engineering student. Guys..life..life holds a lot more meaning to it, than what we understand out of it. It is meaning full for everybody in there own perspective. You see, life is pretty short..but still the moments that we conjure out of it..lives forever.

Life is too precious to waste it over anger and hatred and racism. Why do we need to hate people of certain kind? Some of their kind, did a wrong to us but why do we blame their entire kind for him being like that??

I have seen my death..just minutes away from me. And I have seen death of one of my very close friend.
Guys..reading this..trust me..life is too precious and short and most of all uncertain. It is not to be wasted..not one bit. The every moment life gives you, is your chance to make it into something..a memory..such a memory that every time you close your eyes you live that moment again and smile again.
Guys..friends..live every moment to its max..don’t waste any of it.

F0rGiVEinG aND f0RgeTtiNG, iS aLL It TakEs…

Maybe what all I wrote above is just due to I watched a movie..but you think and let your thoughts flow from the simplest of the things occurring near you..

BTW..the movie I was watching is CRASH..do watch it..;)

Take care..
Later..:)

“Friends”..as I put them…

Hello friends a very happy new year to you all..i hope everybody who is reading this enjoyed their new year with their “friends” as I did!

“Friends”..the most important part of a person’s life..n I guess everybody is gonna agree to that..if they don’t they must be kicked out species from some alien planet..!

“Friends”..they teach us how to live, how to cry how to laugh, how to be strong and face the cruel world out there with the brave heart. They help us to come over our daily grieves, heartbreaks and the most difficult of our problems.

Friends”..I have earned a very few in my life. It doesn’t matter how many “friends” we have..coz one “friend” is all is needed to make life a better place to live in.
People often mistake friends in a very small aspect..they often consider them, whom they meet every day, whom they wish good day everyday as their friends. People whom we talk to everyday…they may not be our “friends”. They may not be there in the hour of need.
“Friends”..they hold a very important place in our lives. They are there when we need them even before we think we need them. They are the one who will take all our problems on themselves before passing it onto us. They will be there besides us when we are sick, holding our hand, sitting on the chair next to us and sleeping with their head on our bed..! They will be there when we didn’t pass in our university exams..drinking with us and taking all the crap that we say after we get drunk. They will be lending us money when they themselves won’t be able to pay there dues after lending us that amount. They will be there in our break-ups and console us and then laugh at us over it saying..”I told you so..!”..(
bloody suckers…!) . They will help us clean our room, cursing us, when our parents are going to visit us in a few hours. And you owe them a treat to make them go for a bath because your parents are visiting you! They are always there with us no matter how long we haven’t spoken to each other. The day you eill remember them, they will come for you.

You can make a lot of friends..but you have to earn “Friends”. They make life a lot easier to deal with. Without them life is a bitch and with them it’s a simple walk down the road.
They understand everything even before you say anything. They sense the cause of your trouble before you can figure it out. They never cause grief..

“when you walk in the rain, a friend is the one who can tell the difference between our tears and drops of rain”

There is one more..!!

“A good friend is the one who bails you out of the jail,
A true friend is one who is in the same lock-up and says..
“It was fun dude. Let’s try that once again..?!!”


I got few such friends..I hope you also get few of them..

Take care..
Later..:)

P.S.: This blog, I have written in totally inebriated state..it may be hazardous to your brains and grammar and English..!

Friday, November 27, 2009

The Fifth EXAM of my FIFTH semester


Went to the exam hall...a herculean task in itself (coz you never know...when your heart is going to jump out of your mouth!)...all these exams...They are just worst nightmares for Engineering students like me...They have to complete the whole syllabus by the night..coz they sit for serious study only then..and remember it all till the next morning..with the constant fear of forgetting it all the very next minute..and then manage to recall it anyhow..so that you can pass in your exam..

coming back..to my experience of today's paper..well this happens to be my first blog..so I just couldn’t think of anything more interesting to write on..

ya..again coming back..!..i went to the examination hall..with a heart beating several times its normal speed..n it almost broke the cage..meant to keep it in one place..when I saw a very dreaded sight..
Today's invigilator was..AMBUJ..a very vigilant invigilator and a compulsive stalker..!
he gave us the answer scripts in a very peculiar fashion..to the girls first..n then made us wait 15 long minutes..before handing over the scripts..


then came the question paper..with racing heart and a great effort..I took it from his hand..read it..n then hung my head on my hands..wished..wouldn't have slept for that one hour in the night..:(

the language of the paper seemed to be alien..
what the hell is MUX, Xcess 3 series., BCD..bhah..
didn’t knew what to write..what to solve..supple seemed certain..
turned back..to see my friends face..BLANK..
so with all the other faces around.. totally BLANK ..except for one mugger..she just started to empty her pen's ink and the trees of the world(paper :P) the very moment question paper was handed over to her..by the time i started to write my first letters on the answer scripts..she had already finished two sides of a page..what a disgusting race of human species..I mean how can anybody mug up everything and pour it out the next day..n be among the toppers of the class..

well none the less..I tried..again..for the fifth time..to DECIPHER that alien language once again..
I guess..this time some alien was helping me out to understand those tricky words..n finally I solved a question in one hour..for 8 marks..out of 70...and then I was sure of my second supple in the this Fifth semester..but suddenly after solving one question..paper didn’t seem that alien at all..I could understand most of the words and could get a rough idea on how to solve them..(to be noted..a rough idea..that’s it!)

I then saw my other classmate..sitting in front of me copying a 14 marks question..that was it..I wanted to write the same thing on my script too..and I started to struggle for getting glimpses of his answer..but it was a bit difficult..with that Ambuj..
Finally my friend sensed that I was trying to copy from him..and he was more than glad to help me...
Well..simultaneously Ambuj also sensed that I was trying to copy..n he was not at all happy about this..unlike my friend..n gave me a stern look..n a warning..then he came n stood beside me(was he stinking?..suddenly why such stench burning my nostrils?)..well..one more thing I forgot to mention was..that I went very early to my exam hall..to write some clues over the desk..!!..coming back...he was standing beside me n looking at my paper..n suddenly he says.."What is all this..?" My ears suddenly rose and my heart sensed..that something bad was going to happen..I turned and looked into his eyes (confidently!)..and said " What sir?"..he said "It’s your electronics paper right?"..to this replied.. "no sir, this is digital and pulse circuits paper.."
He said "what's this written on your desk..?"..before I could utter a word.."This is my last warning to you. If I find you doing something, I will chase you out of the hall."..I said in my mind.."There are many things I can do right now..answer my questions, kick the one sitting in front of me, yawn loudly(remember..I didn’t had much of the sleep in the night..!?)..what exactly you talking about?"..but I chose not to speak..and continued writing..

Finally 2 more hours passed..I could finally solve for considerable marks in the paper..of course with some help from my friends..n in the end..that..bloody stalker..didn’t snatch my copy in the end..like he did with other..instead..he let me write for some extra time..maybe he is not that bloody after all.. :P


Came out of my examination hall(a.k.a. HELL)..n took a sigh of relief..next exam is after three days..I have ample time to sleep now..its been like almost continuous five nights since I have slept properly..now I can sleep like a log..! asked my classmates about how there paper went..they were almost like..not that good..or so so sort of..but then I guess I was still happy that I could do good in spite of the kind of preparation I had..!

Walked down to the food joint to have something to fill my stomach..which was regularly reminding me of its emptiness since early morning..and to meet my friends of other streams as well..and do the trade mark "AAEEEE....SAJANIYAA....!!..HUM AA GAYE RE...!"(hey loved one..I have come)..well it my not sound funny if you simply read it..but with that specific tone and body gesture..you can make people roll on the ground..roaring with laughter..!

Then some one there asked me how was your exam..i replied.."it went well..but it will be coming back soon.."..he seemed pretty puzzled by my this reply..then he interpreted it and said.."why soon..?..next exams will be in the end of next semester.."..i gave a sigh..thinking.."what a poor fellow..couldnt understand this simple statement.."..before i could expalin the real sense of my statement..a wise fellow came to my rescue..he said to him.."AREE understand the feelings man..!..he means they will be coming back pretty soon..by this he means, he thinks, he is getting a supple..!!"..and i thanked that wise soul with all my heart..

well..one thing is very clear..after completing four semesters successfully..that this pattern of examination is just too old..I mean I don’t see a point in teaching us students for one whole semester..around four months..and then test it all in just three hours..I mean how can it help us anyway..maybe..I as a student, is more profound in some part of a particular subject..and not so good in the other parts..what if the question paper was such that it doesn’t include any question from that particular part..which is a very possibility..because..it’s not possible for the professors, to include questions from every part of the syllabus..so if that happens..then my examination will not be that good..n it would directly imply that i m not a sincere student..
well..it’s just what I think..maybe many other may disagree with me on this..or maybe I myself is wrong..but then as said time and again..there is always a scope for improvement.. :P


C ya..